Month: October 2021

Letter to my Twin Flame

Letter to my Twin Flame

Like I said in my previous blog Life and Death. I mourned my twin flame as if he had died. Losing him was the worst pain I had ever felt in my entire life. So I grieved him by writing this letter.

Here is what I wrote…

Reflecting back on the time we shared together makes me so happy that I had you as a friend in my life.

That weekend we shared together was like magic. It was something out of a fairytale. I have to keep reminding myself that life is not a Cinderella story and not every story has a happily ever after.

When you kissed me I felt fireworks within my entire being.  I have never felt anything like that before and I will never experience that again. I thank you so much for that moment.

For in that moment my heart chakra was wide open and I felt the burning love that you’re supposed to feel for someone.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

If I had 3 wishes…
*I wish you knew the depth of this connection 

*I wish we could communicate

*I wish you knew how much your friendship means to me

It was wrong of me to share all this weird crazy stuff that was happening to me. At first I thought it was all your fault, that I was cursed and my entire life fell apart. It was wrong of me to blame you. I thought that you would understand where I was coming from. Since we triggered this together. I assumed you were experiencing what I was. I was wrong and I am sorry.

I was so scared and alone. I am so grateful you took the time out of your weekend to listened to my side of the story. Instead of calling me crazy, you pulled me in closer and supported me. Thank you 🙏

How did you not feel the fireworks between us?

I didn’t know what love was until I hugged you. I will forever be grateful for that hug we shared. For that was the hug that gave me back my life.

I know life has not been easy for you. Trust me I’ve been there too. Our life mirrors and reflect one another. I 100 percent know where you’re coming from.

My hope and wish for you is that you’re happy. I hope you live a long and prosperous life. Filled with love and joyous moments. I hope you find someone to share your life with even if it isn’t me. I wish you nothing but the best in this lifetime. Know that I love and support you always and forever.


“It’s better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all”



Life and Death

Life and Death

So today I found one of my residents dead. Having worked in long term care for over 20 years now I have actually found many people who are just laying in their bed waiting to be found.

Today was different I was in the office trying to put some music on an iPod for another resident the song I was loading was “stairway to heaven” when all of a sudden I heard… “For the love of god will someone come check on me, god damnit”.

I connected the voice in my head to one of my residents who was end of life. I had gone to say my goodbyes that morning knowing this resident didn’t have much time left in this physical world. As I approached the room I felt goosebumps through my entire body the hairs on my neck stood on end. I knew they were dead before even entering the room and should have just went to get the nurse. However I proceeded to go into the room.

I sat with the body for a minute I put my hand on this persons arm and saw their life flash before my eyes like you see in the movies. This individual lived a long full life. They had travelled the world, painted pictures of their adventures, wrote and published a book, was married and had lived an amazing life. This individual was in their 90’s. I had watched the arthritis take over their body to a point where they were bed ridden, hard of hearing, visually impaired and no longer able to paint or write. Over time this person became a hermit in their room refusing all 1:1 friendly visits. I watched over the course of a year as this person declined. Where was the quality of life? Why continue to lay in a bed allowing a machine to breath for you? That is not living.

Being surround by death has really taught me a lesson in how to live my life. I live my life in the moment with no regrets. I take the chances, go on adventures, travel the world and just live life care free.  If I don’t like the way my life is going I change it.

My life has changed more in 2 years than I could have ever imagined in my wildest dreams. I have learned that we are the creators of our own reality and can manifest any life we desire from our dream state into reality.

I am so grateful for the universe connecting me with my twin flame. Although I didn’t feel that way in the beginning. I felt as if I had been cursed. My entire life as I knew it fell apart after connecting with him. Within one months time I left my matrimonial home, my husband at that time and all my things behind to start my life over. It was one of the scariest things I have ever done.

It was the fear of the unknown that kept me trapped in an abusive, loveless relationship for so long. I can tell you today I stand before you a much stronger, confident, independent woman and I will always be grateful that I made these life changes when I did. If it wasn’t for my twin flame I would probably be in the same abuse cycle or even worse dead.

As for the twin flame thing. It does get easier with every passing day but he is still burned into my body, mind and soul. Some days are easier than others. I find the hardest part is having no communication with him in the real world. I actually had to grieve loosing him.  When he ghosted and blocked me out of his life. It was as if he had died here in the physical world. In order to grieve his death I wrote a letter in my journal called an ode to my twin flame.

With life comes death and although neither is easy. It is important to just live your life daily. We come into this life alone and we die alone. Like Trooper says in their song “We’re here for a good time not a long time, so have a good time the sun can’t shine everyday”

30 Day Self-Love and Care Challenge

30 Day Self-Love and Care Challenge

Starting today whatever day you have stumbled across this blog. Challenge yourself to 30 days of self love and care. My goal for this post is that after 30 days you will feel better about yourself and see the transformation. It takes 3 weeks to create and sustain a healthy habit and mindset. 90 Days to sustain it and make it into a lifestyle change.

As Promised in my second Book 📕 Ignting the Flame Within: Guide to Healing📕

I have attached a list of links and Amazon items to assist you on your healing journey. Scroll past the challenge, all the links to what helped me are listed below. If you want a more in-depth plan of how this challenge works book two will be available for purchase early spring of 2022!
❤️ ❤️‍🩹 Best of luck ❤️‍🩹 ❤️ 

30 Days to Self Love and Care 

  1. Journal
  2. Exercise
  3. Drink more water
  4. Meal prep and eat healthy from this day on
  5. Write down 10 things you a grateful for everyday
  6. I am… Daily Affirmations
  7. Ground Yourself
  8. Meditation
  9. Take a bath
  10. Do something you love
  11. Save $5 a day
  12. No screen time until after work limit to 1 hour a day during leisure time
  13. Go for a Walk/ hike connect with nature
  14. Try oil pulling
  15. Forgive your past and let it go
  16. Pay if forward
  17. Take a different way to work or wherever  you need to go
  18. Talk to a stranger
  19. Compliment everyone you see
  20. Declutter and get rid of things you don’t need
  21. Dance and Sing throughout the day
  22. Go to bed early
  23. Try a new exercise
  24. Make a meal you have ever made before
  25. Write down 10 things you would like to manifest into your life
  26. Do something nice for a family or friend
  27. Get dressed up and go out for dinner
  28. Do something out of your comfort zone
  29. Call a friend or family member on the phone
  30. Congratulations!!!! You have completed 30 days you should now have $100 saved treat yourself to a reward you deserve it!

List of Products I used:

My Top Journal Picks:

Zen as F*ck Journal :

Into the wild Shadow Work Jounral:

The Untethered Soul Journal:

Power of Now Journal:

Burn Book: 100 Day Planner:

Adult Colouring Book:

Adult Colouring Book 2022 Calendar:

Painting Project:

My Go to Exercise Programs: 

Sit to Fit beginner Exercise Idea:

21 Day Fix Program (perfect for beginners):

21 Day Fix Meal Portion Size Containers:

90 Day 30 Minutes Jillian Michaels Body Revolution DVD Kit:

Jillian Michaels (my favourite workout DVDs):

Zumba Dance Party:

Winsor Pilates: Different DVDs to chose from:   

Guided Meditation:

Yoga for Beginners:

Chair Yoga:

Breath Yoga:

Advance Yoga:


Thin Yoga Mat:

Thick Yoga Mat:

Loop Bands:

Regular Resitance Bands:


Yoga Blocks and Straps:


Apple iwatch:

Cheap Fitbit Option:

Food and Drink Ideas:

Electrolyte Powder:

Liquid Chlorophyll (add to water):

Psyllium Husks:
GI Fortify:

Parisite Cleanse Kit:

Greens Plus:

Raw Greens:
Coconut Oil:

Vitamin C:

Vitamin D:

Multi Vitamin:

Fish Oil:

Protein Powder:

Self Care Products: 

Bubble Bath:

Epsom Salt:

Dry Skin Brush:

Shower Aroma Therapy Pucks:

Breath Clear Shower Pucks:

Oil Defuser:
Cheaper Option:


Air Purifiers:

Spiritual Healing: 

Sage Smudging Kit:


Crystal Healing Starter Kit:
Crystal Healing Oil Infused Chakra Bracelet:

Chakra Healing Pendulum:

Wooden Pendulum Board:

Original Tarot Card Deck 1909:

Tarot Made Easy Deck:

Chakra Oracle Cards:

Angel Answers Oracle Cards:

Souls Journey Cards:
Practicing the Power of Now:

How to Love Yourself Cards:


The Power of Now:

The Untethered Soul:

Spiritual Guidance Book:

Journey of the Souls:

Daily Devotions for Spiritual Growth and Peace of Mind:

The Secret:

The Magic:

Think And Grow Rich:

Mind Gut Connection:

List of New Activities to Try: 

Learn to Knit:

Learn to Crochet:

 Gardening Kit: