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Letter to my Twin Flame

Letter to my Twin Flame

Like I said in my previous blog Life and Death. I mourned my twin flame as if he had died. Losing him was the worst pain I had ever felt in my entire life. So I grieved him by writing this letter.

Here is what I wrote…

Reflecting back on the time we shared together makes me so happy that I had you as a friend in my life.

That weekend we shared together was like magic. It was something out of a fairytale. I have to keep reminding myself that life is not a Cinderella story and not every story has a happily ever after.

When you kissed me I felt fireworks within my entire being.  I have never felt anything like that before and I will never experience that again. I thank you so much for that moment.

For in that moment my heart chakra was wide open and I felt the burning love that you’re supposed to feel for someone.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

If I had 3 wishes…
*I wish you knew the depth of this connection 

*I wish we could communicate

*I wish you knew how much your friendship means to me

It was wrong of me to share all this weird crazy stuff that was happening to me. At first I thought it was all your fault, that I was cursed and my entire life fell apart. It was wrong of me to blame you. I thought that you would understand where I was coming from. Since we triggered this together. I assumed you were experiencing what I was. I was wrong and I am sorry.

I was so scared and alone. I am so grateful you took the time out of your weekend to listened to my side of the story. Instead of calling me crazy, you pulled me in closer and supported me. Thank you 🙏

How did you not feel the fireworks between us?

I didn’t know what love was until I hugged you. I will forever be grateful for that hug we shared. For that was the hug that gave me back my life.

I know life has not been easy for you. Trust me I’ve been there too. Our life mirrors and reflect one another. I 100 percent know where you’re coming from.

My hope and wish for you is that you’re happy. I hope you live a long and prosperous life. Filled with love and joyous moments. I hope you find someone to share your life with even if it isn’t me. I wish you nothing but the best in this lifetime. Know that I love and support you always and forever.


“It’s better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all”



Life and Death

Life and Death

So today I found one of my residents dead. Having worked in long term care for over 20 years now I have actually found many people who are just laying in their bed waiting to be found.

Today was different I was in the office trying to put some music on an iPod for another resident the song I was loading was “stairway to heaven” when all of a sudden I heard… “For the love of god will someone come check on me, god damnit”.

I connected the voice in my head to one of my residents who was end of life. I had gone to say my goodbyes that morning knowing this resident didn’t have much time left in this physical world. As I approached the room I felt goosebumps through my entire body the hairs on my neck stood on end. I knew they were dead before even entering the room and should have just went to get the nurse. However I proceeded to go into the room.

I sat with the body for a minute I put my hand on this persons arm and saw their life flash before my eyes like you see in the movies. This individual lived a long full life. They had travelled the world, painted pictures of their adventures, wrote and published a book, was married and had lived an amazing life. This individual was in their 90’s. I had watched the arthritis take over their body to a point where they were bed ridden, hard of hearing, visually impaired and no longer able to paint or write. Over time this person became a hermit in their room refusing all 1:1 friendly visits. I watched over the course of a year as this person declined. Where was the quality of life? Why continue to lay in a bed allowing a machine to breath for you? That is not living.

Being surround by death has really taught me a lesson in how to live my life. I live my life in the moment with no regrets. I take the chances, go on adventures, travel the world and just live life care free.  If I don’t like the way my life is going I change it.

My life has changed more in 2 years than I could have ever imagined in my wildest dreams. I have learned that we are the creators of our own reality and can manifest any life we desire from our dream state into reality.

I am so grateful for the universe connecting me with my twin flame. Although I didn’t feel that way in the beginning. I felt as if I had been cursed. My entire life as I knew it fell apart after connecting with him. Within one months time I left my matrimonial home, my husband at that time and all my things behind to start my life over. It was one of the scariest things I have ever done.

It was the fear of the unknown that kept me trapped in an abusive, loveless relationship for so long. I can tell you today I stand before you a much stronger, confident, independent woman and I will always be grateful that I made these life changes when I did. If it wasn’t for my twin flame I would probably be in the same abuse cycle or even worse dead.

As for the twin flame thing. It does get easier with every passing day but he is still burned into my body, mind and soul. Some days are easier than others. I find the hardest part is having no communication with him in the real world. I actually had to grieve loosing him.  When he ghosted and blocked me out of his life. It was as if he had died here in the physical world. In order to grieve his death I wrote a letter in my journal called an ode to my twin flame.

With life comes death and although neither is easy. It is important to just live your life daily. We come into this life alone and we die alone. Like Trooper says in their song “We’re here for a good time not a long time, so have a good time the sun can’t shine everyday”

30 Day Self-Love and Care Challenge

30 Day Self-Love and Care Challenge

Starting today whatever day you have stumbled across this blog. Challenge yourself to 30 days of self love and care. My goal for this post is that after 30 days you will feel better about yourself and see the transformation. It takes 3 weeks to create and sustain a healthy habit and mindset. 90 Days to sustain it and make it into a lifestyle change.

As Promised in my second Book 📕 Ignting the Flame Within: Guide to Healing📕

I have attached a list of links and Amazon items to assist you on your healing journey. Scroll past the challenge, all the links to what helped me are listed below. If you want a more in-depth plan of how this challenge works book two will be available for purchase early spring of 2022!
❤️ ❤️‍🩹 Best of luck ❤️‍🩹 ❤️ 

30 Days to Self Love and Care 

  1. Journal
  2. Exercise
  3. Drink more water
  4. Meal prep and eat healthy from this day on
  5. Write down 10 things you a grateful for everyday
  6. I am… Daily Affirmations
  7. Ground Yourself
  8. Meditation
  9. Take a bath
  10. Do something you love
  11. Save $5 a day
  12. No screen time until after work limit to 1 hour a day during leisure time
  13. Go for a Walk/ hike connect with nature
  14. Try oil pulling
  15. Forgive your past and let it go
  16. Pay if forward
  17. Take a different way to work or wherever  you need to go
  18. Talk to a stranger
  19. Compliment everyone you see
  20. Declutter and get rid of things you don’t need
  21. Dance and Sing throughout the day
  22. Go to bed early
  23. Try a new exercise
  24. Make a meal you have ever made before
  25. Write down 10 things you would like to manifest into your life
  26. Do something nice for a family or friend
  27. Get dressed up and go out for dinner
  28. Do something out of your comfort zone
  29. Call a friend or family member on the phone
  30. Congratulations!!!! You have completed 30 days you should now have $100 saved treat yourself to a reward you deserve it!

List of Products I used:

My Top Journal Picks:

Zen as F*ck Journal : https://amzn.to/31MCwse

Into the wild Shadow Work Jounral: https://amzn.to/3FfW6L3

The Untethered Soul Journal: https://amzn.to/3JYxV7C

Power of Now Journal: https://amzn.to/3nfP6I2

Burn Book: 100 Day Planner: https://amzn.to/3r5olqH

Adult Colouring Book: https://amzn.to/3r3fvd7

Adult Colouring Book 2022 Calendar: https://amzn.to/3Gfu5o5

Painting Project: https://amzn.to/3f71G8    https://amzn.to/3FedmjQ

My Go to Exercise Programs: 

Sit to Fit beginner Exercise Idea: https://amzn.to/3GiaKmc     https://amzn.to/3HT3PAi

21 Day Fix Program (perfect for beginners): https://amzn.to/33ng9tB

21 Day Fix Meal Portion Size Containers: https://amzn.to/3HM6k7q

90 Day 30 Minutes Jillian Michaels Body Revolution DVD Kit: https://amzn.to/3fgiZ6l

Jillian Michaels (my favourite workout DVDs): https://amzn.to/3zKOkrw

Zumba Dance Party: https://amzn.to/3fjGBad   https://amzn.to/3JULLrz

Winsor Pilates: Different DVDs to chose from: https://amzn.to/3GqSTJO   https://amzn.to/3JYJkEf   https://amzn.to/3zKcBOb             https://amzn.to/3r8syKn       https://amzn.to/3ncBX2o     https://amzn.to/3r5jJkr

Guided Meditation: https://amzn.to/3HTyOfF  https://amzn.to/3qgUAnR

Yoga for Beginners: https://amzn.to/3K0VxZi   https://amzn.to/3r77qEn  https://amzn.to/3HTXnZT

Chair Yoga:https://amzn.to/3raLTue

Breath Yoga: https://amzn.to/34zOvu1

Advance Yoga: https://amzn.to/3tpjzHc   https://amzn.to/3tidwV6


Thin Yoga Mat: https://amzn.to/3qcgvfG

Thick Yoga Mat:https://amzn.to/3HV61aq

Loop Bands: https://amzn.to/3GgNbKy

Regular Resitance Bands: https://amzn.to/3r8uJxx   https://amzn.to/3nddU3i


Yoga Blocks and Straps: https://amzn.to/33nQ39Y

Fitbit: https://amzn.to/3GhoOwe

Apple iwatch: https://amzn.to/3qecaZF

Cheap Fitbit Option: https://amzn.to/3GklXmn

Food and Drink Ideas:

Electrolyte Powder:https://amzn.to/3r2vg41https://amzn.to/3r2mDGx       https://amzn.to/33kJsgo  https://amzn.to/3qcWtBV

Liquid Chlorophyll (add to water): https://amzn.to/3HVoLH6

Psyllium Husks: https://amzn.to/3r8A1ZV
GI Fortify:https://amzn.to/33lfNDM

Parisite Cleanse Kit: https://amzn.to/3HW8bqB

Greens Plus: https://amzn.to/338UrKi

Raw Greens: https://amzn.to/3qfZPUL
Coconut Oil:

Vitamin C:

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Multi Vitamin:https://amzn.to/3f9ZNre

Fish Oil: https://amzn.to/34sYrFE

Protein Powder: https://amzn.to/3K1PmUz

Self Care Products: 

Bubble Bath: https://amzn.to/3F8TtKR

Epsom Salt: https://amzn.to/3tufamL https://amzn.to/3HRBTgl

Dry Skin Brush: https://amzn.to/3rcazTs

Shower Aroma Therapy Pucks: https://amzn.to/3qfzbeJ

Breath Clear Shower Pucks: https://amzn.to/3qcSrt5

Oil Defuser: https://amzn.to/3tuwF6r
Cheaper Option: https://amzn.to/33lcsVi

Oils: https://amzn.to/3HRt9Xr

Air Purifiers: https://amzn.to/3f9m3Bv  https://amzn.to/3tn1R7z  https://amzn.to/3zMDYaw

Spiritual Healing: 

Sage Smudging Kit:https://amzn.to/3faOrTN


Crystal Healing Starter Kit: https://amzn.to/3zRlpC3  https://amzn.to/3f9ntvP
Crystal Healing Oil Infused Chakra Bracelet: https://amzn.to/3K9vFdM

Chakra Healing Pendulum: https://amzn.to/3fcssvv

Wooden Pendulum Board: https://amzn.to/3r50UxL

Original Tarot Card Deck 1909:https://amzn.to/3GhrEkS

Tarot Made Easy Deck: https://amzn.to/3qeeLmn

Chakra Oracle Cards: https://amzn.to/34tEsqo

Angel Answers Oracle Cards:https://amzn.to/31PrRwY

Souls Journey Cards: https://amzn.to/33nIr7y
Practicing the Power of Now:

How to Love Yourself Cards: https://amzn.to/3ndr2Fu


The Power of Now: https://amzn.to/3zMCNHX

The Untethered Soul: https://amzn.to/3GkiYub

Spiritual Guidance Book: https://amzn.to/3FeDivB

Journey of the Souls: https://amzn.to/3FcqKVt

Daily Devotions for Spiritual Growth and Peace of Mind: https://amzn.to/3fbYhVi

The Secret: https://amzn.to/3Gf92SB

The Magic: https://amzn.to/33nT7Tp

Think And Grow Rich: https://amzn.to/3Ghbfx5

Mind Gut Connection: https://amzn.to/3FiqeWf

List of New Activities to Try: 

Learn to Knit: https://amzn.to/3r7bJzx  https://amzn.to/3zMMZ3i  https://amzn.to/3qeZr8J

Learn to Crochet: https://amzn.to/3FmdWMh

 Gardening Kit: https://amzn.to/3zKb4b7   https://amzn.to/3JYnLUh